Looking at this selfishness in what we believe shocks me further. What if our motives for Christian living are suspect, our love for God questionable because of ingrained selfishness and self focus? It's always the way, you struggle, wrestle and wait and then three quotes come all together!
"Our sorrow and grief for sin, must not spring merely from a fear of wrath; for if we have no other ground but that, it proceeds from self-love, and not from any love to God; and if love to God is not the chief motive of your repentance, your repentance is in vain, and not to be esteemed true." (George Whitefield)
To be afraid of hell or purgatory and desirous of life without pain or trouble in heaven is not in itself Christian. It is self-interest on a higher level... (Walter Rauschenbusch) quoted in Scorgie, G. G. (2007:61). A Little Guide to Christian Spirituality: Three Dimensions of Life With God. Grand Rapids, Michigan: Zondervan.
If I adore You out of fear of Hell,
Burn me in Hell!
If I adore you out of desire for Paradise,
Lock me out of Paradise.
But if I adore you for Yourself alone,
Do not deny to me Your eternal beauty. (Rabia al-Adawiyya) Quoted in Rohr, R. (2001:19). The Enneagram: A Christian Perspective. New York: Crossroad General Interest